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Danish philosopher Soren Kierkegaard (1813-1855) was one of the most important people who led the development of existentialism with his philosophical approaches related to “existence”. Although existentialism develops with different points of view through religious or other preferences. Kierkegaard was the main determinant of the basic concepts such as “existence, identity, anxiety…” According to Kierkegaard, each person, who wants to be happy in the world he/she lives in, needs to complete his/her identity progress. This is because to describe the identity or existence means to explain the meaning of life. This is the common idea of many existentialist philosophers. A person has a lot of power to make sense of his/her life. Kierkegaard called these powers as secret power. Ability, freedom, etc. are some of these powers. Individual chooses and uses one of the fields such as ethics, aesthetics, and religion and then reaches existentialism, which is formed by his/her conscious. However, this is not easy for every individual. For instance, modernism causes people to feel alienated from the society he/she lives in and prevents him/her to describe identity. Therefore, the search for an identity has been an important subject for philosophers especially since 19th century. The struggle of the female character in Hasan Ali Toptaş’s story called Gökyüzü Gri is with her ego. Nurdan, who has a conflict between her desires and the rules of the society she lives in, follows her desires despite all the enclosure of the ethical field. However, patriarchal social structure is the greatest obstacle for her. In this study, the search of the female character is going to be analyzed on the basis of the descriptions of identity and existence of Kierkegaard.